Why are you scared to check your boyfriend's phone?
Sigh :( guys I love happier questionsss! But okay I’ll explain lol. I’ll warn you though, it’ll be pretty long
Well. I feel like every time I look over at his phone, I always see something I don’t like, like girls I don’t trust that he texts. And I just don’t think that should even be happening. He thinks it’s okay I guess because that doesn’t happen when he looks over at my phone. But when I do see things like that, my heart drops and I don’t like the feeling. Before I’d let it slide, but now that I say things because he tells me to talk to him about the things I don’t like, I expect it to not happen again. But it *has* happened again… And like several times.
I don’t want to say I don’t trust him, I do. And I really don’t want to seem like that type of girlfriend, I don’t. But honestly I think everything would just be perfect if I didn’t feel the pang of uneasiness when he gets just a single text. I shouldn’t have to tense up when he’s texting next to me, you know? Guys have never taken their phone out next to me and texted a girl. And it’s constantly happening with him.
I get sad when I think about it, because I know it’s just one of the bad things I have to deal with in our relationship. And I feel helpless and pissed, and his defense is always the same, “she’s just a friend.” But it’s like… I see the same name over and over again. And this is while I’m with you, I bet you text the bitch while you text me also. That’s a really big no no in my book.
I would have never been the type to deal with things like that. But I’m in too deep with him, and that means all I can do is just sit here and hurt and kick and scream and complain about it. But at the end of the day I won’t do anything about it…
So yes, I’m scared. I’m scared to the point where I’d rather not look through his messages and be blissful with my ignorance. And just keep the idea of his perfection in my head.
And I think that’s something really awful to admit.